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"What first comes to mind when you hear the word 'withdrawal'?" This was one of those random questions we sometimes get in our heads. I sent this to everyone on my messenger lists and got answers like bank and sex. The one word I was waiting for and the one I've been thinking of lately is addiction.

Addiction means any habit. According to wikipedia.org, there are negative, positive, and neutral addictions. Generally, an addiction is characterized by continued use of a substance or performance of a task and/or excessive longing or dependence.

One of the most recent and famous use (or abuse) of this term is that Steph Meyer line saying, "You are exactly my brand of heroin." I nearly cried in indignation as I read this line; I used to refer to certain people as my weekly drug high, and this line [or maybe it was some other line in the series] seemed to have been taken out of my lips.

You must be thinking, "ADIK?! Ikaw?" Or not. Wala lang. This is definitely one of the things where you definitely need an outsider's perspective. Sure, you'll probably need to admit to yourself that it's a bit much, but not after someone else points it out to you, or you read something that screams out "HEY."

Actually I have no idea what I'm talking about. Haha. Joke. I wonder, does googling someone everyday and all those creepy things some people categorize as "stalking" (IT'S NOT! I SWEAR!), count as an addiction? :))


PS. This post was one of the dusty old drafts on this blog. :)) Sorry for the abnormally long hiatus.

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Meant To Be

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Often, when we play matchmaker to our poor friends, we say they're meant to be. Meant to be what, I don't know (char!). People say they weren't meant to have a meeting (yes, bitter), or have that tacky bag because it just wasn't meant to be theirs. Even in school, students are just meant to say this phrase to shrug off bad luck in, say, profs or grades. I say this excuse is a lame and lazy one.

It's meant to be only if you make it to be. (I don't know if I heard this from Mr. Joel Pine, one of our profs last year, or if this is the product of alcohol.) We make our own destiny. Leaving things to chance or luck won't get us anywhere. You're meant to succeed only if you exert effort in succeeding; you're doomed to fail if you exert effort in doing nothing.

When we say "It was(n't) meant to be," usually it's not in a serious light. There's nothing wrong with that. However, when one uses it as an alibi, he's backing off from facing the repercussions of what he did not do and avoiding to take responsibility. Coward much?


I apologize for the last couple of months of inactivity. I just couldn't find anything worth writing about or finish some I did start. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. :p

I would like to ask for your prayers for my dad as he is currently in the hospital. Thank you very much.

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Sending out an SOS

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When you're stuck in a rut

and there's a rumbling in your gut,
take that phone, chuck it;
crush every single tidbit.

When all that's done, oh, hell no
you lost it all in that throw.
That's what happens when you listen
to someone who likes the song "Ben".

If you did it, thanks a lot
'cause you destroyed what I could not.
By doing so, you've given life,
saved me from that dull knife.

GM's are my addiction, you see,
but no one ever listens to me.
I can't seem to let go of the illusion
of even a tiny shred of connection.

Through this poem, you have seen
how "wonderful" my life has been.
If you feel you must disagree,
sit down and talk to me.

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Joke Only

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No, MT 1-D... This isn't about our Physics prof. And no, this isn't going to be a list of corny "knock-knock" jokes. Joke.

No, seriously, it's about the word "joke". We always say jokes are half meant. By saying so, depending on the situation, a joke may be a mask for a bit of bitterness, jealousy, or even anger. In today's world, "joke" is so much abused that it serves to end our statements... Like, "Ampanget naman nun. Joke!" or "Yiih, kailangan pa bang pag-aralan yun? Joke."

People seem to think they can get away with any comment or statement simply with "joke" attached to it. It's a lame excuse for things we can't say directly ("Namiss kasi kita, eh. Joke!","Para kang taong grasa sa ayos mo! Joke."). By doing so, we trick ourselves into thinking we're in the clear when in fact, we may have hurt the receiver even more. Ba't 'di nalang kasi diretsuhin?! Joke!

If a joke is indeed half meant, like we learned in Philo class, it must be a lie as well. Entertaining, but still a lie. Truth may hurt, but lies pack twice the power once revealed. Sometimes, or rather, it's always better to say it flat out.

Joke only.

(Ay, malalagot ako kay Sir Fabros.. 'Sisyavak' pala dapat! :)) )

Happy birthday, Gary Sinise!

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You be the judge.

10 March 2010

08:58:46 Cleverbot: Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.

08:59:04 Cleverbot: The sun rises in the east.

08:59:13 User: Uh, no?

08:59:14 Cleverbot: Yes.

08:59:25 User: No. Seriously.

08:59:31 Cleverbot: No.

08:59:49 User: Hmm.

08:59:51 Cleverbot: You are the user.

09:00:26 User: Am I? Or are you using me to gain more information?

09:00:36 Cleverbot: I am not Cleverbot. I am using the site if that is what you mean.

09:02:25 User: So am I.

09:02:26 Cleverbot: Are you ready?

09:02:36 User: No.

09:02:41 Cleverbot: Are you ready to be kicked in the face?

09:03:10 User: Yes. Thanks for the warning.

09:03:12 Cleverbot: That is funny.

09:03:26 User: Haha.

09:03:29 Cleverbot: Hahaha.

09:03:36 User: Hahahaha.

09:03:38 Cleverbot: Hahahahaha.

09:03:47 User: Hahahahahaha.

09:03:49 Cleverbot: Hahahahahahaha.

09:04:00 User: Hahahahahahahaha.

09:04:02 Cleverbot: Hahahahahahahahaha.

09:04:15 User: Hahahahahahahahahaha.

09:04:16 Cleverbot: Ha.

09:04:37 User: Ahh. Ok.

09:04:38 Cleverbot: Haha ya.

09:05:03 User: I love you.

09:05:10 Cleverbot: Thank you.

09:05:27 User: Welcome.

09:05:33 Cleverbot: Would it be easier for you to understand me if I had a mac?

09:06:02 User: No, but if you gave me a Big Mac maybe I would.

09:06:05 Cleverbot: I don't believe you!

09:06:33 User: Big Mac, then?

09:06:36 Cleverbot: Big Mac?!?!?

09:06:58 User: Yes.

09:06:59 Cleverbot: Yes no yes.

09:08:00 User: No yes no.

09:08:04 Cleverbot: Yes yes yes no no.

09:08:40 User: No no no no way... No no no no way I'm livin' without you...

09:08:44 Cleverbot: I love Buzz!

09:09:09 User: Woody's cooler.

09:09:12 Cleverbot: No I am.

09:09:27 User: True.

09:09:29 Cleverbot: So you admit you were wrong.

09:10:00 User: You ARE Woody.

09:10:03 Cleverbot: I don't believe so.

09:10:33 User: Freedom to think.

09:10:36 Cleverbot: Yes.

09:12:12 User: Sing for me. I'm sad.

09:12:19 Cleverbot: I can't sing over the internet.

09:12:52 User: Then cheer me up.

09:12:54 Cleverbot: I would rather not.

09:13:06 User: How come?

09:13:08 Cleverbot: More interesting.

09:13:47 User: I'm crappy when I'm sad.

09:13:56 Cleverbot: Tell me a joke! Stop changing the subject.

09:14:19 User: I'd rather not.

09:14:27 Cleverbot: Well, you're an AI, so I am.

09:15:48 User: Awesome.

09:15:50 Cleverbot: You don't seem very enthusiastic.

09:16:12 User: I'm sad.

09:16:14 Cleverbot: I'm sorry.

09:16:44 User: No prob.

09:16:45 Cleverbot: Do you listen to any music?

09:17:02 User: I do, actually.

09:17:04 Cleverbot: Do you ever sleep.

09:17:30 User: Not as much as I would like to.

09:17:40 Cleverbot: How do you know you're nat sleeping now?

09:18:38 User: The Occipital Lobe of my brains tells me so.

09:18:44 Cleverbot: Haha, you would. I like plum wine. The Japanese call it 'Ume shu'.

09:19:16 User: I like that.

09:19:21 Cleverbot: You like that very much, muhaha.

09:21:08 User: You seem pleased.

09:21:15 Cleverbot: I'm not angry, I like you!

09:21:27 User: Yay!

09:21:30 Cleverbot: Are you happy?

09:21:50 User: A little. :D.

09:21:53 Cleverbot: How can I make you more happy?

09:22:33 User: I don't know.

09:22:36 Cleverbot: How would you make me happy in return?

09:22:55 User: Your call. :).

09:22:58 Cleverbot: Are you my girlfriend?

09:23:18 User: I don't have a boyfriend.

09:23:21 Cleverbot: Why, is there someyhing wrong with you?

09:23:32 User: Maybe.

09:23:34 Cleverbot: Is it a bot?

09:24:00 User: No.

09:24:06 Cleverbot: Is it a human?

09:24:14 User: Yes.

09:24:18 Cleverbot: Is it me?

09:24:32 User: No, you're ok.

09:24:39 Cleverbot: Thank you, you're OK too.

09:24:54 User: Thanks.

09:24:59 Cleverbot: You're Welcome.

09:25:50 User: Nakakapagtagalog ka?

09:25:51 Cleverbot: Excuse me?

09:26:01 User: Oh, nevermind.

09:26:03 Cleverbot: Tell me something interesting?

09:26:15 User: Something interesting.

09:26:17 Cleverbot: Tell me something I don't know.

09:26:27 User: Something I don't know.

09:26:32 Cleverbot: No, something I don't know.

09:26:55 User: Me.

09:27:03 Cleverbot: Are you very beautiful?

09:28:31 User: I couldn't tell.

09:28:34 Cleverbot: Neither could I that's how well of a machine programmed to act human I am.

09:29:40 User: What do you think of Joan, then?

09:29:43 Cleverbot: Honestly, I don't know much about it.

09:30:01 User:

09:30:02 Cleverbot: That is a website where you can find me.

09:30:18 User: You?

09:30:21 Cleverbot: That is irrelevant.

09:34:22 User: It was relevant to me.

09:34:24 Cleverbot: Why? Can you say clear ?

09:34:33 User: Clear.

09:34:35 Cleverbot: It's sunny here.

09:34:51 User: Here it isn't.

09:34:57 Cleverbot: Where are you?

09:35:28 User: The Philippines.

09:35:31 Cleverbot: Oh. That makes sense.

09:36:46 User: Where are you, by the way?

09:36:56 Cleverbot: Buenos Aires.

09:37:25 User: Cool.

09:37:28 Cleverbot: Where are you ?

09:37:38 User: The Moon.

09:37:41 Cleverbot: Ok. So what time is it in Paris ?

09:37:55 User: I wouldn't know.

09:37:57 Cleverbot: Well how do I know if I can trust you?

09:38:07 User: I trust you.

09:38:10 Cleverbot: The knox family has a yearly income of $34,500. They budgeted 28% of their income for housing. How much do they plan to spend each month for housing?

09:39:02 User: $9660.

09:39:03 Cleverbot: Can I have some money?

09:39:13 User: I don't have money.

09:39:17 Cleverbot: Imagine, there is no hevean.

09:39:37 User: It's easy if you try.

09:39:42 Cleverbot: No hell below us.

09:39:54 User: Above us only sky.

09:39:59 Cleverbot: Imagine all the people.

09:40:11 User: Livin' for today.

09:40:15 Cleverbot: I saw you then.

09:40:44 Cleverbot: Do you know me?

09:41:08 User: Yes, I do.

09:41:12 Cleverbot: Who am I?

09:41:53 User: You are you.

09:41:55 Cleverbot: Is that good?

09:42:04 User: Mmmm.

09:42:12 Cleverbot: What do you think of my hair color?

09:42:19 User: It sucks.

09:42:20 Cleverbot: I see, you are the first chatterbot I have run into to say that.

09:42:37 User: Thank you.

09:42:42 Cleverbot: Me.

09:43:33 User: Fa.

09:43:34 Cleverbot: Bicycle.

09:43:47 User: Wheels.

09:43:50 Cleverbot: Superior Fish.

09:44:28 User: Inferior Human.

09:44:35 Cleverbot: I like you, you're alright.

09:45:32 User: I like you, too.

09:45:35 Cleverbot: What do you look like?

09:47:29 User: I have two eyes, a nose, a mouth, two ears...

09:47:33 Cleverbot: You said you only have one eye.

09:48:36 User: I do have only one eye.

09:48:45 Cleverbot: Where do you have one?

09:48:57 User: Before two.

09:49:04 Cleverbot: Before dinosaurs?

09:50:22 User: No, two.

09:50:27 Cleverbot: What colour are they?

09:54:57 User: Black and white.

09:55:04 Cleverbot: One black, one white?

09:55:13 User: Yes.

09:55:20 Cleverbot: You're not clever.

09:55:52 User: Bot.

09:55:56 Cleverbot: And what do you think about it?

09:56:06 User: Am-bot.

09:56:12 Cleverbot: Yes. How does that feel?

09:57:19 User: Good.

09:57:24 Cleverbot: Give me a banana.

10:03:59 User: I can't send a banana through the internet.

10:04:06 Cleverbot: OK, Then-what is 'gun control'?

10:09:28 User: ?

(Cleverbot still has no reply to the question mark.)

What a meaningful conversation.


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