Meant To Be

Written by blue 3 comments Posted in: ,

Often, when we play matchmaker to our poor friends, we say they're meant to be. Meant to be what, I don't know (char!). People say they weren't meant to have a meeting (yes, bitter), or have that tacky bag because it just wasn't meant to be theirs. Even in school, students are just meant to say this phrase to shrug off bad luck in, say, profs or grades. I say this excuse is a lame and lazy one.

It's meant to be only if you make it to be. (I don't know if I heard this from Mr. Joel Pine, one of our profs last year, or if this is the product of alcohol.) We make our own destiny. Leaving things to chance or luck won't get us anywhere. You're meant to succeed only if you exert effort in succeeding; you're doomed to fail if you exert effort in doing nothing.

When we say "It was(n't) meant to be," usually it's not in a serious light. There's nothing wrong with that. However, when one uses it as an alibi, he's backing off from facing the repercussions of what he did not do and avoiding to take responsibility. Coward much?


I apologize for the last couple of months of inactivity. I just couldn't find anything worth writing about or finish some I did start. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. :p

I would like to ask for your prayers for my dad as he is currently in the hospital. Thank you very much.

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Sending out an SOS

Written by blue 3 comments Posted in: ,

When you're stuck in a rut

and there's a rumbling in your gut,
take that phone, chuck it;
crush every single tidbit.

When all that's done, oh, hell no
you lost it all in that throw.
That's what happens when you listen
to someone who likes the song "Ben".

If you did it, thanks a lot
'cause you destroyed what I could not.
By doing so, you've given life,
saved me from that dull knife.

GM's are my addiction, you see,
but no one ever listens to me.
I can't seem to let go of the illusion
of even a tiny shred of connection.

Through this poem, you have seen
how "wonderful" my life has been.
If you feel you must disagree,
sit down and talk to me.

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Joke Only

Written by blue 3 comments Posted in:

No, MT 1-D... This isn't about our Physics prof. And no, this isn't going to be a list of corny "knock-knock" jokes. Joke.

No, seriously, it's about the word "joke". We always say jokes are half meant. By saying so, depending on the situation, a joke may be a mask for a bit of bitterness, jealousy, or even anger. In today's world, "joke" is so much abused that it serves to end our statements... Like, "Ampanget naman nun. Joke!" or "Yiih, kailangan pa bang pag-aralan yun? Joke."

People seem to think they can get away with any comment or statement simply with "joke" attached to it. It's a lame excuse for things we can't say directly ("Namiss kasi kita, eh. Joke!","Para kang taong grasa sa ayos mo! Joke."). By doing so, we trick ourselves into thinking we're in the clear when in fact, we may have hurt the receiver even more. Ba't 'di nalang kasi diretsuhin?! Joke!

If a joke is indeed half meant, like we learned in Philo class, it must be a lie as well. Entertaining, but still a lie. Truth may hurt, but lies pack twice the power once revealed. Sometimes, or rather, it's always better to say it flat out.

Joke only.

(Ay, malalagot ako kay Sir Fabros.. 'Sisyavak' pala dapat! :)) )

Happy birthday, Gary Sinise!

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You be the judge.

10 March 2010

08:58:46 Cleverbot: Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.

08:59:04 Cleverbot: The sun rises in the east.

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09:55:52 User: Bot.

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10:04:06 Cleverbot: OK, Then-what is 'gun control'?

10:09:28 User: ?

(Cleverbot still has no reply to the question mark.)

What a meaningful conversation.

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Random Post #1

Written by blue 1 comments Posted in:

"You don't notice something unbelievably awesome someone else is doing for you because you're busy doing something equally unbelievably awesome for someone else. Vicious cycle, huh. Only, it's not a cycle. One person will eventually break the chain of misery."

As I was typing those words on Facebook, I said "Hey, new post!" And here it is. Random Post #1.

We learn there's practically a cycle for everything: water, air, poverty, life, etc. A cycle is basically round. Haha.

Okay... To cut all that crap, final words
na agad. Look back. Hindi naman araw-araw may stiff neck tayo. Appreciate what other people do for you and learn not to just focus all your energies on one thing or person. Be the one to break the cycle.

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It could be the atmosphere. Or the people. Or just plain laziness. I just don't seem to want to go home. It doesn't feels right when I'm on a Marisol-Pampang jeep with the sun still in the sky. Even on a Wednesday, I still find a reason to go there though we don't have classes. I just... like it. No, love it.

You know how they say the school's our second home? That's exactly what I feel when I'm there. Despite the stress and frustration studies can cause, being in school with friends takes the edge off. Some people may agree with me that they like going to school but they dread schoolwork. Sleeping, eating, playing, texting, goofing around... things students look forward to as they enter the classroom. It's also a great place to ask for advice from people we've come to know and accept as our friends.

Theoretically, wanting to stay in school or someplace else indicates problems at home. That's something I wouldn't want to admit. I may be delinquent at least but I wouldn't trade home for anything.

I often tell my classmates that I stay for reconnaissance purposes or for the Angelus. The first one is never true (though generally staying after hours means higher probability of spotting targets); the second is rarely true. I wouldn't regard myself as someone who takes those kinds of things seriously; I'm not at that level yet.

I stay until it's dark because that's always been kind of my ideal set-up, even in high school. It's just... different. Quieter, darker, and a great place to mull things over. A bit of self-reflection is always good, and I find that the campus at night is awesome for those emo moments. Not that I'm emo. It's normal... Right?

Try it sometime. Whether your campus is larger than Vatican City or smaller than SM, you'll see it differently if you stay just a wee bit longer.


What happened today:
>Loads of classic "Ano nga ba?" moments in Chem Lab today. :))
>We got told off by Engr. Sanchez while we were waiting for our next class in the room she was in. Why? We were trying to see if people on the ground floor would look up at us in the 5th floor if we called them "Pogi" or "Cute". Tsk tsk. Strike one. (Sorry Ma'am and BS PT 2-A!)
>Everyone's still wondering what would be a good attention-getter or intro speech. Thank God for my previous obsession with stalking.

NP: Kansas - Carry On Wayward Son

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Slacks Off

Written by blue 0 comments Posted in:

College is about doing what you don't want to do for the sake of achieving it.
-Jose Mari Dychioco

I wasn't always a slacker. 10 years ago, I would have made any grade-conscious dork proud. As changes went, however, I changed for the worse. Where people see stress and pressure, I see another speed bump on the way to Facebook. A year of freedom in Quezon City did nothing to trigger a sense of responsibility in me, something all of us would agree as essential for survival in higher education.

As a consequence (or relief, whichever way you choose), that university chucked me out. Now, I'm taking up Medical Technology back here in Pampanga. I remember saying back in high school that I wouldn't want to be studying near home; fate had other plans. Whether or not I'm stuck here to actually learn to do what I'm supposed to, I have no idea.

People who know when to say when strike me as cool [I really should think of a better word]. That's something I just don't have. To do well and actually achieve grades that look good, one must know when to click 'Logout', especially if he has 15 things to do with five due the next day.

Hypocritical as it may seem, slackers ought to find some meaning in their "cuppy cake" lives. Five semesters of Gen Ed subjects taught me that no minor should be taken for granted lest it turns on you and eats you whole ::cough::. One can not expect to become an Uno-producing mamaw overnight. That's what freshman year is for: collecting tools to cope with all the toxicity in the looming future. It's the year we hone our memory, paraphrasing, and sweet-talking skills. Bleargh.

There are some things we just hate doing. Reflection papers, research, random TWA's... No one can avoid them, though. Don't do them, and it's "see you next sem". Harvesting, straight flushes, tank cleaning, and robbing banks can wait.

For bonking our heads 'til they're as flat as pancakes, I thank the profs I "love" so much. They may give us countless sleepless nights, but it's all for our future [it better be XD]. We may complain now, but when the majors come, oh, how we'll yearn for GE's.

Oh, crap.. I need to do some things. I see light at the end of the tunnel. 85, here I come!

P.S. Accreditation week, wish us luck!


NP: Foo Fighters - Best of You

Incoherent, much?

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